The Only Constant

Chocolate Cake

“The only constant is change.”  My mother loves that phrase… or more likely, she hates it just as much as I do, but likes tossing it at me when I am complaining about something.

I realize that change is inevitable.  Nothing can stay the same forever, and I probably wouldn’t want it to anyway.  It’s the letting go that I have the most trouble with.

I’m a bit of a hoarder really.  A hoarder of things and people and more than anything, possibilities.

When we clean out the basement, my husband sees a broken lamp.  I see a lamp with the potential to be something new. It just needs a little work… Maybe a new lamp shade (I saw a great idea on Pinterest).  Sure, its brass, but I could spray paint it… maybe blue?

I hoard potential… a dream or possibility that could come true… If I hold on long enough…. If I believe hard enough…..

Worse than “stuff,” I hoard people…. holding onto friendships and family longer than I ever should.  The lamp is easy, I fix it, or it remains broken forever…. people are harder…. sometimes, no matter how hard I work…. the relationship will always remain broken.  The hard part is deciding whether I can live with the lopsided relationship… where I am always the one to call them…. the one to invite them to dinner… the one who drops everything and goes to their rescue… again.  How many times should you ask yourself “why do I bother?” before you realize…. you shouldn’t.

These food allergies are a toxic relationship…. literally.  Recognising that is getting easier. Sure, that cupcake looks sweet…. and I can remember times when it was perfect… but now it makes my head hurt… my mind foggy and so tired… it gives me stomach-aches…. and now its time to let it go.

Yes, I’m referring to a few certain relationships and situations specifically today… The allergy detox has just really brought it to the forefront of my mind…. there are a number of things that need to be let go right now.  People, situations and food…. you only hurt me…. and I don’t want that anymore.

The great thing about letting go? Now there is space for something new.

Speaking of “new”… Since I started blogging about my allergies I met some great new blogger friends who share my allergy challenges.  While I am sorry that they too have to struggle with food, I am so happy that they are sharing their discoveries with me.

I’d been whining that I missed chocolate and Faking Picture Perfect (Love the name!) shared her Chocolate Cake recipe with me.  My aunt’s birthday was yesterday and  I figured that it was a perfect time to try out!  My aunt and cousin are both vegetarians, so they’re getting a kick out of me turning practically vegan.

FPP was going for dairy-free… I also wanted gluten-free, so I used King Arthur Flour Multipurpose Gluten Free Flour in place of regular flour.  Next time I’d like to try to replace the eggs too.

Hubby whipped up a batch of his mega-delicious-eat-it-straight-from-the-bowl icing and it was absolutely delish!  Family loved it!  Thank you Faking Picture Perfect!

Chocolate Cake

Preheat Oven to 350 degrees. Grease and flour 13×9 pan. Combine Coconut Milk, Vinegar, Water, Oil, Sugar, Eggs, Vanilla, Baking Soda and Salt. Using a large wire whisk, whisk until well combined. Add Flour and Cocoa Powder; whisk until smooth. Pour batter into pan. Bake for 35-40 minutes or until the center bounces back when lightly touched. DO NOT OVERCOOK!

Sweet Success – Day 10

I’ve lost 6lbs!  Woo Hoo!

Okay… okay.. I know that wasn’t the (whole) point of this little (huge) endevor…. The goal was to feel good, be healthy, not want to barf all the time… not have crazy reactions to food …. BE HEALTHY.  That’s why I started this…. who knew all the amazing “extras” that would come along with the “real” goals?!

  • I’m sleeping through the night (I used to wake/get up 4-5 times a night… now usually only once)
  • My knees don’t hurt and my hands feel better too – my hands were hurting so much the last time I knit that I was actually thinking I wouldn’t be able to knit in another few years.  And my rings are SO loose now!
  • No more stomachaches! – I’d been having random, terrible stomachaches… I could never identify what was sparking them.
  • Weight loss! – 6lbs gone in just 10 days.. OMG!  I’m not hungry or feeling deprived… I’m actually eating very well (once I found safe chocolate.)

I’m sure there are other things that are happening that I haven’t even been able to recognize yet.  It’s all really exciting.  I can’t wait to see what happens next!

I admit… I mostly started blogging about my allergy-detox to keep me on track… public accountability…. what I hadn’t counted on was all the great support/stories/suggestion and questions from friends and family.  Ususally, when you are on a diet/detox you feel so alone and deprived… I have been SO lucky!  My husband has been so supportive… joining me in this new lifestyle (because that’s the plan… a new lifestyle that we want to continue).  Mom, as always, super!  Friends are even sending me new recipe suggestions… Yay!

Yesterday my Auntie B sent me this great link: No Sugar Oat Drops by Blueberry Girl… I loved the blog name!   Of course, I had to check it out!!

No Sugar Oat Drops

No Sugar Oat Drops

1 1/2 c. regular rolled oats
1 c. coconut flakes
1/2 tsp salt
1 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp allspice
1/4 c. of almond meal (How to make your own – another great blog – Detoxinista)
1/2 c. mixed nuts, finely chopped
1 c. dried fruit (I used Crasins and chopped candied ginger)

3 ripe bananas, mashed
1/4 c. canola oil
1 tsp vanilla extract

Preheat oven to 350F. Grease baking sheet. (I used my Misto…Misto Gourmet Olive Oil Sprayer, Brushed Aluminum – LUV!)

In a large bowl, combine rolled oats, almond meal, mixed nuts and coconut flakes. Stir in allspice and cinnamon. Add dried fruit and stir until well and evenly mixed. Make sure the dried fruit does not stick together in big batches.

In another bowl, combine canola oil, mashed banana and vanilla extract. Pour wet ingredients over dry ingredients and stir until well combined.

Drop by spoonfuls onto greased cookie sheet – (I used my cookie scooper – OXO Good Grips Medium Cookie Scoop)

Bake for about 20 minutes or until edges are golden brown.

Thank you Auntie B and Blueberry Girl!!  These were amazing!